I’ve noticed some behavioral changes since I went out on this adventure and I can’t help but compare it to how I used to travel for vacations. I had been to Costa Rica three times before I moved here. I used to plan for each day in depth because obviously my time was limited and there were things I wanted to see and do. I eventually got to the point where I was talked into NOT having a plan. It was a little difficult and I think I still had things on the agenda, just not as structured. I ended up liking that a whole lot more. I really didn’t enjoy being like Jack on “Meet the Parents” where he had each minute accounted for but I didn’t realize that until I let go of it.
I found that when I first got here and was living in Cocles, I didn’t make plans to do ANYTHING. I didn’t EVER go snorkeling like I said I would; I didn’t go visit the waterfalls or the national parks; I didn’t stand under a tree and look up in it expecting to see a sloth or a monkey. Heck, you may remember that I didn’t even pay attention to what was in my own YARD! I suppose I felt that I wasn’t rushed and that these things would come in time…which some of them did. I felt like since I LIVED here now, there was no particular reason to rush into doing things. As my friend says, “The plan is to not have a plan”. Things change – the weather can play a big part in your ‘plans’, your mood has a lot to do with it and if you’re doing it with other people, THEIR plans can change at the last minute too.
So I’m finding that I like the fact that I’m not rushed but I do find myself putting things off FOREVER. For instance, I have a favorite tree here that I love to look at when I go walking on the mountain. It is very far away and on someone’s land. I would LOVE to make the hike up to that tree and sit under it but I probably won’t. My time in this town is coming to a close and I think I will regret not trying to go visit that tree. So instead, I look at it, I painted a picture of it, I TOOK pictures of it and I’ll always remember that neat tree. That will have to be good enough. Maybe I don’t have to accomplish everything I want to do. I am trying to make an effort though since I’ve become aware of this, to do the little things that mean a lot to me.
Maybe I will try to go sit under that tree after all.